Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts

Thursday, February 28, 2019

71: Supplications and Revelations

Sandpiper

The roaring alongside he takes for granted,
and that every so often the world is bound to shake.
He runs, he runs to the south, finical, awkward,
in a state of controlled panic, a student of Blake.

The beach hisses like fat. On his left, a sheet
of interrupting water comes and goes
and glazes over his dark and brittle feet.
He runs, he runs straight through it, watching his toes.



- Watching, rather, the spaces of sand between them
where (no detail too small) the Atlantic drains
rapidly backwards and downwards. As he runs,
he stares at the dragging grains.

The world is a mist. And then the world is
minute and vast and clear. The tide
is higher or lower. He couldn't tell you which.
His beak is focussed; he is preoccupied,

looking for something, something, something.
Poor bird, he is obsessed!
The millions of grains are black, white, tan, and gray
mixed with quartz grains, rose and amethyst.

                     - Elizabeth Bishop
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71


There was that examen when he asked
About that long time he spent on the road
He wondered about the supplications
And if he was one of Bishop’s sandpipers,
Chasing the tide out to where she came or the tide
Rolling fervently chasing him inland
While keeping his head down looking ,
Looking for something.

Maybe two weary worn detectives could help
Scrutinize the trail of clues 
In the discovery of the story
Of his salvation history or real purpose.
Maybe the story is distorted by time.
Maybe time is distorted by the story.

25,915 spent just like that.
Invested wisely? Wasted gifts ?
Juggling promises of the earth 
Proved to be a distraction from the truth.
Liar ? Tired of rekindling the fire?
What is truth?
Did he believe he had the strength to handle the truth?

Most of the unequivocal trust 
In some of the self appointed wizards’
Arthur Murray methodology of
Dancing one’s way to redemption
Was betrayed. The millstones tied 
Around their necks were 
Tied with slip knots.
He stirred up the dust of rage as he paced the cage.
He no longer needed a teacher
Or need a good book to know.

Remembering the great mystic’s observation
How the dark night of the soul leads to
A loving union with the divine;
Ashes to ashes , dust to dust no longer fueled fear.
In the meanwhile his spirit recommitted
For the remainder of his odyssey to
Delight in the sacred innocence of children, music,
Soaking in the mystical insights of poetry
And to live in the equanimity of the ever-present peace and love,
He knew he would bathe in the ocean of grace 
   …of every aspect of the present.

   - JF Sobecki



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Tell Me a Story

….Tell me a story.
In this century, and moment, of mania,
Tell me a story.
Make it a story of great distances, and starlight.
The name of the story will be Time,
But you must not pronounce its name.
Tell me a story of deep delight.

    - Robert Penn Warren


Calmly We Walk through This April’s Day
   
… What will become of you and me 
Besides the photo and the memory?
(This is the school in which we learn …
... that time is the fire in which we burn.)   
What is the self amidst this blaze?
What am I now that I was then
Which I shall suffer and act again,
The children shouting are bright as they run   
(This is the school in which they learn ...)   
…What am I now that I was then
…May memory restore again and again   
The smallest color of the smallest day:   
Time is the school in which we learn,   
Time is the fire in which we burn.
     
                - Delmore Schwartz

You set the Scene - Love


Acid Tongue - Jenny Lewis

Pacing the Cage - B. Cockburn

True Detective Season Three - If You Have Ghosts
(The dialog of two old friends...detectives)

Jack Kerouac on The Steve Allen Show
Reading a segment from On The Road *

Amazing Grace - D. Allman




                                   “I once was lost, but now am found”


amdg



“One day I will find the right words and they will be simple”
        - Jack Kerouac

“The only truth is music”
       - Jack Kerouac

















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Sunday, March 31, 2013

A Good Friday Prayer : For Lilia


It started out as one of those normal good Fridays : coffee , paper, and the dog outside for a whiff of the finally spring air while marking his ground. The sacred day was upon everything and everyone. The pilgrim didn’t realize how holy it was about to become


“We all mark our ground in one way or another,” the pilgrim reflected.



To watch the dog no one would surmise that cancer had invaded his physical being as he carefully observed birds dart from here to there. He and his human companion listened to what seemed to be the first songs of spring from a robin that anointed the scene from above.



For the first time in what seemed to be forever the sun rose without a cloud to hide her beauty as she commenced the gentle warming of everything in her sight. Yet, the pilgrim couldn’t shake the picture of from his head of the once majestic forest of his younger days that had been swept down by some angel’s broom. That which was needs to fall make room for new seeds and new stories to be lived and told.



“ Everything changes, everything says goodbye,” his poem turned song lyrics had become a mantra.



And so it began, while those chimes softly echoed with the assistance of some divine breath. Then just like that…the universe stood still… absolute, silent, pure, peace and grace-filled. That moment of solitude and solace was shattered by a distant call where a brotherly tear-filled voice proclaimed that their mother, who had insisted on going home, had finished her journey and moved on to just what she had desired.



For hours lightening flashes of a million memories constantly zipped through his head. His spirit draining his heart finally rested with the awareness that the sun had reached her peak. It wasn’t until a friend’s words, “Let love lead you into mystery,” that he understood .



And just like that again .... he awakened and it was Easter.
































Do not stand at my grave and weep

I am not there. I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.

I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain.

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circled flight.

I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry;

I am not there. I did not die.



Mary Elizabeth Frye




FAITH

I want to write about faith,

about the way the moon rises

over cold snow, night after night,

faithful even as it fades from fullness, 

slowly becoming that last curving and impossible 

sliver of light before the final darkness.

But I have no faith myself 

I refuse it even the smallest entry.

Let this then, my small poem, 

like a new moon, slender and barely open, 

be the first prayer that opens me to faith. 



-- David Whyte


                 "A Time to say good-bye"

                        In Memoriam Lilia Avogadri Sobecki

 
 amdg