Saturday, June 1, 2019

What Matters - Random Reflections for June 2019


                                             

Tomorrow Never Knows - Choir! Choir! Choir!

June 6,1944
( In the beginning I misunderstood
The page read “Nothing can give you peace and love”
The teacher said “it is meant that ‘no-thing’'
Gives love or brings peace. 
You want peace - live peace .
You want love - live love.”
Recalling a conversation with my dad
I queried about his experiences in the war
He never answered. 
The silence told me everything
I needed to know about war and violence.
If we ever had a peaceful exchange it was about
music or baseball.

At times I wondered if I would ever learn.)


"I live on Earth at present, and I don’t know what I am. I know that I am not a category. I am not a thing — a noun. I seem to be a verb, an evolutionary process – an integral function of the universe."
                                            -  R. Buckminster Fuller


("A Catholic turned Quaker, O'Reilley rebelled against tidy religious language. "I want every spiritual word to be new, minted that second. Or else I want silence)

“Recognizing that a lifetime is a momentary parenthesis in eternity, we commit to focusing on, and bringing our “A game” to every moment. Impermanence is the second “mark of existence.” Worry about the future isn’t a wise allocation of time. If we slide into that space, we bring the focus back to service in the present.
A liberating aspect of abiding with impermanence is accepting that everything—plants, animals, people, trusted institutions, and civilizations—rise and fall in accordance with natural evolutionary processes. It’s freeing to let go of what is outworn so that the new can emerge. Suffering, the third “mark of existence,” occurs only when we try to hang on to that which we’ll never be able to apprehend.”
   —- Pamela. Boyce Sims

 (The counselor did her best to help me understand
Why you can never push a river.
“It just flows” , she said. )

WHERE MANY RIVERS MEET

All the water below me came from above.
All the clouds living in the mountains 
gave it to the rivers, 
who gave it to the sea, which was their dying.
And so I float on cloud become water, 
central sea surrounded by white mountains, 
the water salt, once fresh, 
cloud fall and stream rush, tree roots and tide bank, 
leading to the rivers’ mouths 
and the mouths of the rivers sing into the sea, 
the stories buried in the mountains 
give out into the sea 
and the sea remembers 
and sings back, 
from the depths, 
where nothing is forgotten.
-- David Whyte


That’s The Way it Goes - Joe Brown ( G. Harrison)


( They say that the word desire comes from the Latin meaning “of the Spirit/Source.”
St.Augustine suggested that all and any desire is a longing for God - an eternal source of completeness-peace- joy .Where there is desire there is prayer.)


In Held Twas I - Procol Harum


In Held Twas I 

Opening Verse -

[Glimpses of Nirvana]
In the darkness of the night, only occasionally relieved by glimpses of Nirvana as seen through other people's windows, wallowing in a morass of self-despair made only more painful by the knowledge that all I am is of my own making ...
When everything around me, even the kitchen ceiling, has collapsed and crumbled without warning. And I am left, standing alive and well, looking up and wondering why and wherefore.
At a time like this, which exists maybe only for me, but is nonetheless real, if I can communicate, and in the telling and the bearing of my soul anything is gained, even though the words which I use are pretentious and make you cringe with embarrassment, let me remind you of the pilgrim who asked for an audience with the Dalai Lama.
He was told he must first spend five years in contemplation. After the five years, he was ushered into the Dalai Lama's presence, who said, 'Well, my son, what do you wish to know?' So the pilgrim said, 'I wish to know the meaning of life, father.'
And the Dalai Lama smiled and said, 'Well my son, life is like a beanstalk, isn't it?’”


On the Turning Away - Virginia gentlemen ( Pink Floyd)
For The Virgina Gentleman and Virginia Beach


Lil Bro Birthday Boy 6/9

“ On a trip on the Oguwe River in 1915 it came to me that reverence for life is the only basis on which a viable ethic can be built”
  -  Albert Schweitzer


                                                              June 16 , 1972
(I saw you coming my way
You didn't have to say
That you would always stay
For I knew all of that love
Was coming from you)


Love Song - Elton John


Someone Who Loves Me - Sara Bareilles w Milk Carton Kids
https://youtu.be/pGlXLhnF8G8


( Writing is a form of learning and knowing)

“Remembrance is a form of meeting”
  - K. Gibran

"Tell Me a story"

In this century,and moment , of mania
Tell me a story.

Make it a story of great distances, and starlight.

The name of the story will be Time,
But you must not pronounce  its name.

Tell Me a story of deep delight"

- Robert Penn Warren 


"So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past"
  F. Scott Fitzgerald

amdg

“One day I will find the right words and they will be simple”
        - Jack Kerouac
“The only truth is music”
       - Jack Kerouac


For  Ginny -  and of course Lindsay and  Leigh - their families !




















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Thursday, May 2, 2019

For Otis Our Miracle Dog

Otis Redding - Miracle Dog


Sittin on the Dock of the Bay (Otis Redding - Performed by Various artists)
https://youtu.be/Es3Vsfzdr14


“ We Sanctify all we are grateful for”
     - Anthony De Mello SJ

"Because of the dog's joyfulness, our own is increased.It is no small gift.It is not the reason why we should honor as well love the dog of our own life, and the dog down the street, and all the dogs not yet born. What would the world be like without music or rivers or the green tender grass? What would the world be like without dogs?"
 - Mary Oliver, Dog Songs

"And it is exceedingly short , his galloping life. Dogs die so soon. I have my stories of that grief, no doubt many of you do also. It is almost failure of will, a failure of love, to let them grow old- or so it feels. We would do anything to keep them with us, and to keep them young. The one gift we cannot give."
- Mary Oliver, Dog Songs



                                                      



For Otis Our Miracle

They say you got your name Otis Redding  as a pup
Because you sat on the water’s edge
Just watching the water seeing no need to go in.
A little different for a Yellow Lab don’t you think?
Our eyes connected in a flash at Mary’s Place
 (a farm for homeless canines out in the middle of nowhere New Jersey)
I felt guilty as I thought “ who would want to take a dog from this paradise?”;
Wide open spaces, all the the room to run and chase everything and a pond if
You ever got the inclination to change your mind and jump in.
Mary said “ I can’t keep them all and need room for more coming in weekly.”
You joined our band of pilgrims and the next leg of the journey commenced.
We blinked our eyes and almost 12 months passed just like that
And the fun and frolicking came to dramatic skidding halt
With the words “ Otis has cancer and we can maybe give him 6 months of life
With regular doses of chemo.”
But then prayers have a peculiar way of being answered.
A former colleague told me of a mystic holistic vet up in horse country.
Ginny was suspicious of what she considers voodoo but added
“ We have nothing to lose.”
Dr. Sheila, a certified vet  had specific training in holistic medicine and healing
For animals of all sizes but she was not taking any more patients.
That same colleague who referred us to her gave up her next appointment just to get you in and our world changed again.
You seem to fall in love with Dr. Sheila immediately as the diet changed
To human food - pork loin, salmon, boiled chicken, bananas, sweet potatoes and on and on but you missed the carbs didn’t you?
Your cancer didn’t depart but something 
ceased in its gnawing away at your inside and the death talk was postponed.
Dr Sheila called you her “miracle dog.”
All was right and well with the world again.
You loved everyone you met especially our girls and their families
 and everyone loved you.
You found a best buddy in Chase , Lindsay and Joe’s , new Golden Retriever.
Just like The Lone Range and Tonto, Lennon and McCartney, Abbott and Costello….you two were a real energetic hoot.
It was almost and annual event when you would give us a brief scare.
But you were a fighter and bounced back better than before.
You loved sitting near Ginny who would sneak you pieces of cheese  and yogurt. I think you thought you loved posing for an Andrew Wyeth painting by resting on our queen size bed, just the perfect size for you right?

Nothing will ever replace our serene morning walks together.
I had to laugh when you would find the rain annoying and put your head down when you walked. Everyone we met on our walks would stop and say hello and you would delight in meeting them. You even seemed to say “hello” to birds and squirrels in the neigborhood . Every living creature was created for you to play with or befriend.

 You didn’t like the sound of gunfire…I think we humans need to learn from that unique intuitive sense. Actually we need to learn a lot from you and your canine companions.I believe that you are all angels in disguise trying to teach these aimless wandering humans through your living the example of unconditional love. Upon my imperfect moments you were always quick to forgive and forget.” Don’t worry , we’re done with that. I love you and let’s move on” your eyes would say. I heard a poet once discuss how all living creatures are spirits with souls but just with different bodies, capabilities and gifts. We humans really need to learn to be truly authentic and live with the desire to give love and  compassion, be merciful , be selfless and be present to the world and don’t be afraid to chase a ball or two if someone throws it. 

The former Poet Laureate Billy Collins said “ Dogs are really good to read your poetry to.” Whenever I would read what I had written or sang a song I had composed you were patient and kind and would wait until I was out of the room before you would make a face which I really don’t think you did.

How is it that the day we dreaded and did not discuss crept upon us without warning? I felt impotent and inept as your condition deteriorated . All that love you gave so freely and my love was all I had and it would not be enough to heal or stave of the that dark scythe bearing spirit from stealing your light .
I was and am continually reminded that you had six years that no one expected. I know you were a gift to us and one of the many surprising condolences we received recalled how in we were a gift to you. Yet, I am still humbled and grateful…grateful for your presence in our lives , grateful for Dr. Sheila and the doctors and caregivers who helped us all through your final moments. As you were a living example of love you were a living proof that miracles do happen.

As I drove off from the veterinary hospital I heard a song and all I remember was the chorus….

“Take me away from the beating drums
Let the great world go by
Wash me down
Wash me down
And when you go
I will never forget”



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Wash Me Down - Jim Cuddy


                                                                                       For Otis

                                                          
amdg

“One day I will find the right words and they will be simple”
        - Jack Kerouac

“The only truth is music”
       - Jack Kerouac

















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Monday, April 1, 2019

A Scent of Paradise





“All Children are born artists.The problem is to remain an artist as we grow up.”
   - Pablo Picasso



“If all the insects were to disappear from earth, within 50 years all life on earth would end. If all human beings disappeared from the earth, within 50 years all other forms of life would flourish.”
   - Jonas Salk

"The Element: How Finding Your Passion Means Everything"
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“I think it is ok to think about what you want to do …until it’s time to start doing what you were meant to do.”
   - The Rookie (Movie)
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A Scent of Paradise

Birds of Edith sing of no regrets or desires
Sun rises, sun sets
Winds without known origin blow
Carrying tired pilgrim sailors who dare to be-
Odysseys unbound.
The great manipulative pedagogy sucks and
Spits out bots to support the needs of the one percent
A few unfit or unprepared are squashed;
Some shake free and head out for Robert’s Road.
The seed of that magnanimous source
Wisely conceived diversified Promethean spirits 
With gifts to be discovered and flourish.
Even the great teacher knew where treasures lie
And that teacher was tortured , humiliated and put to death.
And the expectation persists that energy for freedom
And creativity should end at puberty.
Standing on the shoreline
The essence of the divine incense of salted air,
The silence augmented by sweet soft lapping waves
Onto the ever patient beach
Receive the light and warmth of the risen sun
Emboldens souls who are ready to wake up and
Be precisely who they are intended to be.

—- JF Sobecki
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Don’t Forget April is National Poetry Month













Why Do We Read and Write Poetry?
Dead Poets Society.

O Me! O Life!

Oh me! Oh Life! Of these questions recurring.
Of these trains of the faithless, of
Cities fill’d with the foolish,
Of myself forever reproaching myself,
(for more foolish than I, and who more faithless ?)
Of eye that vainly crave the light , of the objects mean,
Of the struggles renew’d,
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding
And sordid crowds see around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the
rest, with the rest me intertwined, 
The question , O Me! So sad recurring _ 
What good amid these, O me , O life?

Answer.
That you are here — that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse.

—- Leaves of Grass, W. Whitman
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A fun visit might be to check out this web site were average everyday people and a celebrity or two read their favorite poems.


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The Cloths of Heaven

Had The heaven’s embroidered cloths,
Enrought with golden and silver light;
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
I would spread the cloths
Of Night and half-light;
I would spread the cloths under your feet;
But, I being poor , have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
  • W. B. Yeats
For the Anniversary of My Death

Every year without knowing it I have
Passed the day
When the fires will wave to me
And the silence will set out
Like the beam of a lightless star

Then I will no longer
Find myself in life as in a strange garment
Surprised at the earth
And the love of one woman
And the shamelessness of men
As today writing after three days of rain
Hearing the wren sing and the falling
cease
And bowing not knowing to what

— W. S. Merwin (d. 3/15,2019)


R.I.P. W. S. Merwin

I am not sure what to say
I think I know what I feel
Another sacred piece has been untethered
From its earthly home…
Lack and gratitude

   - JF Sobecki

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A few random factoids to reflect on

  • Freud once suggested that the most important aspects of life in the western world are “work” and ‘love” and in that order - he was not being complimentary
  • In the US 27 % of college graduates work in the field of their major
  • 70 % of working Americans are dissatisfied with their work
  • College graduates historically change their careers at least 3 x
  • Only 2% of young Americans follow their dreams in terms of work and the type of life they desire
  • Young people are expected to make life long decisions at age 19 and the choices for the most part are usually college(major), a trade or military service
  • A Majority of heart attacks occur first thing Monday morning
  • The ONLY indicator of longevity of a person’s life is stress and stress is known as the primary indicator for cardio vascular disease and other significant physical maladies
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Follow Your Dreams - J. Messina


Non, Je Ne Regrette - E. Piaf

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Sometimes you need a good a song just because

Boots and Hearts - Tragically Hip


Forty Light Years - K. Osmond



amdg

“One day I will find the right words and they will be simple”
        - Jack Kerouac

“The only truth is music”
       - Jack Kerouac

















Copyright 2019 JF Sobecki LLC All Rights Reserved